My Journey Through a Challenging Move: Finding Strength in Change

The Decision to Move

I haven’t posted in two months because I received a 30-day notice to move. I faced a tough decision: search for a new place out of my price range, move in with a roommate, or possibly risk my finances and well-being. The choice needed to be in the best interest of my son and me.

I focused on finding a place near my son's school and work. Coming up with nearly $3,000 and relying on roommates was daunting. I worried that any cohabitation could lead to conflicts and strain friendships. I decided to trust my instincts and the guidance of a higher power.

The Appointment That Changed Everything

I made an appointment with a potential roommate, but she fell ill, and it was raining that day. With only 20 minutes left until our meeting time, I sat in my car, contemplating my options. Finally, I chose to move into my seasonal camper while my son would stay with my sister for everyone's benefit.

Yes, I would miss him, but it felt right. This decision would help us save money and allow him to be close to his school and work. It also offered me solace in nature, which was crucial for my mental health.

The Chaos of Moving

Let me take you on my journey since that pivotal choice. I was working full-time while packing and decluttering my belongings. I had to open up my camper and organize my things there too. My days started at 8 a.m. or earlier. I often worked late, sometimes not heading to bed until nearly 2 a.m., trying to create and learn new skills that called to me.

During this period, I battled the frustration of unreliable phone and Wi-Fi connectivity. My usual multitasking efficiency was slipping away, leaving me feeling drained and sore. I dealt with both perimenopause issues and the chaos of moving, which strained my mental health.

Health Struggles and Workplace Challenges

The move unfolded over three weekends, with minimal help. I hesitated to ask for assistance since I had relocated just five months earlier. Unfortunately, I pulled a muscle or pinched a nerve in my back, causing health concerns.

I work remotely and faced pressure from my boss. After waiting eight months for a leadership role, I was blindsided when it went to a newer employee without any communication. This led to a spiral of self-doubt. I thought, "Am I not good enough? What's wrong with me?" It felt as if my loyalty and dedication were overlooked.

Living in a camper without running water added to the chaos. My belongings were everywhere, making it difficult to find anything. I often bumped into things, spilling drinks and feeling overwhelmed by clutter. I missed my son deeply; it had always been just the two of us.

Work Strain and Mental Health

Amidst all these challenges, my Wi-Fi struggled to keep up with my work demands. To complicate matters, my new leader was on maternity leave. A coworker was terminated, and our boss was on vacation, which meant extra workload fell on us.

I was denied time off for a doctor’s appointment to assess my physical health. Additionally, I made appointments for my mental well-being, which I hadn’t done since my father's passing 21 years ago. I experienced extreme brain fog, focus issues, and a rollercoaster of emotions, including sadness and anger.

I was granted short medical leave but faced termination during that time, only to have my job reinstated due to miscommunication. I felt like a number, disposable and undervalued by my employer. Despite my six years of dedication, my performance was now scrutinized as I struggled.

Finding My Strength

It became clear I could no longer be a stepping stone for employers or relationships. I got a couple of prescriptions to help me feel better. I also began the daily grind of commuting to the office, adding three hours to my day and shortening my work-life balance.

Still, my faith kept me grounded. I remained patient and hopeful that something better was on the horizon. I have wonderful friends and family who showed me kindness during this time. They let me stay with them and offered an ear when I needed to vent.

Despite the chaos, I recently obtained a new car that I love. I’m designing a tank for a local friend’s bar and stepping into exciting new ventures, including becoming a DJ host for music bingo. My water is getting fixed tomorrow, which is another hurdle cleared.

The Upswing

I have been seeing my son more frequently and staying connected with him. Things are beginning to turn around. My patience, resilience, faith, and strength have been tested, but I did my best during these trying times.

Moving forward, I plan to prioritize relaxation and devote time to my creative projects. I aim to acquire skills that will help me grow my business and set myself free from the constraints of those who fail to appreciate my talent beyond what I can do for them.

In this journey, I learned the importance of self-worth and the value of nurturing relationships that uplift rather than drain.

Sending love and light. ❤️🫶 C